Monday, November 21, 2011

Sins of the heart

This is a MH fanfic inspired by two of my OC's.




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I never meant to hurt you, I wanted to shout across the court yard as Ingrid gracefully made her way through. "I love you Ingrid" I whisper to myself. "I love you". I clench the barbwire fence as I think about how my presence disgusts her. It is best I remain in the shadows, the last thing I want to do is upset her, or worse, have her run off again.

I've been working as the Graveyard keeper at Monster HIgh for almost 10years now, before my soul reason for existing was to find Ingrid, my wife. We were married on a cool October day in 1841, she was 16, and I was 48, time had not been good to me, but I always considered myself a reasonable man. I loved her from the day I saw her, she was 15 then, and her parents were looking for a baron to get them out of their debt. They were about to loose everything. I was the youngest on the prospect list so they took to me quickly. After the first courting I knew it was not going to be easy to gain her affection, but I did not think It would be impossible. I thought I could get her to trust me, to understand that I didn't want to hurt her, but her rancid remarks and profound disapproval was driving me mad. She never gave me an opportunity to show her the love I really had in my heart. I didn't want to take her by force, but if it wasn't me, it would be someone else and that thought I could not stand. I made the mistake of kissing her against her will one day and that drove her over the edge. She tried to kill herself, I didn't know what to think and my conscience had me feeling like a sinner. I was disgusted with myself, she aroused a distastefully feeling in my gut that I thought about cancelling our arrangements. However my dirty, selfish desires surpassed and it happened, but I could barley stand the wedding. She wailed and sobbed, begged and pleaded, for her freedom.... for death. I held back tears and locked down that ball in my throat that wanted to escape and express my sorrow. This is not what I wanted. I just want the opportunity to tell her that I love her without tears running down her face, without fearing what I might do to her, I want to hug her and hold her tight, smell her hair, parade her around in my arm, and make her smile. ... I just want to make her smile.

We were only married a few hours, as her death came shortly after. She was turned to the world of the walking dead, wining a ticket out of her misery, out of my life. My heart would of been broken if there was any left to break. But I cried that night, like a child, uncontrollably. My soul was hurting and I had no one to turn to, no one to comfort me. I signed all my property to Ingrids family and went on a self finding trip which landed me in England. I was a happier man there, working with a Carriage company as a chauffeur. I lived there for 2 years until I passed into the world of the dead myself, accidently turned into a night walker by a young vampire who had a conscience about killing me. The juvenile vampire took me to his maker who showed me how to be this undead beast. It wasn't long before I caught on and ventured out on my own, feeling young and refreshed. Feeling adolescent. It was then that the thought struck me to find Ingrid. With my heightened scense and the memory of her smell engraved in my heart it wasn't long before I found her.

I don't know why I expected anything to be different, maybe because she did have a few years to mature, and time no longer applied to us, I thought just maybe... but I was wrong. The second she saw me, blood tears stained her face and before I could get a word out she attacked me and just like that she was gone.
Its been well over 100yrs now, this whole time I've been longing to find her, hanging on to that bit of hope that one day I'll see her and her reaction will be different. That is my reason for existing, though my fear of her rejecting me again has kept me from looking for her.

BUT, Maybe the demons have finally decided to be good to me this year, since last month I noticed Ingrid began to attend Monster High. I've seen her hanging around the campus almost everyday and for that I am thankful.
I've been thinking of ways to approach her, but they all end with a beating. Maybe I should just let her kill me, maybe that's as romantic as I can be for her.



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Saturday, November 19, 2011

Wave 2 - Catzi's Diary

Now that I've been back into monster high, more so than before, inspiring me to write up more original characters and even attempt to draw them! I've been doing so much more with monster high, and theres so much more that I want to do. More drawings, more stories, but most importantly more crafty tutorials! I hope to have more time sooner rather than later.
With all the new MH OC related things I want to do, I still go back to Catzi! <3 She's my favorite OC of course, she's the closest one to me personally.

Being that it's been over a year since I introduced Catzilerella as a New Monster high student, I thought it be nice to give her a "second wave" Diary! ^_~

You can read the first one here
Drake Man belongs to DA member Brett1486
Celeste and Camile belong to DA member DJMirnum
Saphira belongs to Da member DesuPanda98

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Sept 26
I have to admit the past couple of weeks just spend on by. At first I was really bummed that Magna never came to visit, but I have made several friends and they've helped me just forget about it. Not that I've really mentioned him, and why should I when he can't even return my calls. RAAWRRR! I feel stupid for feeling the way I did about him, and I guess this is the last time I mention it mainly because there's a new love in the air! *swoon*
I ran into the cutest boy at school this morning. Of course I totally embarrassed myself and ended up running away beet red, but I got to see him again after school... in De-Dungeon.
We were both late to class after our first run-in.
He has the most captivating eyes, the perfect blue skin tan, and his wild black hair that I'm just dying to run my fingers through. He doesn't speak much though, at all. His lips are stitched up, since his voice is deadly to most. I'm not sure if I could stand his yelping, but he communicates just fine through texting and tablet scribe. He wrote me, he thought I was freakishly stunning which made my cheeks feel like they were on fire. I didn't really know what to say after that, not that we were saying anything at all. I hope to get to see him again soon!

Sept 29

I was talking to Celeste and Camile about Drake, the Blue skinned hottie, and they told me I should see if he knows sign language. They tried to teach me a few things and during lunch I went into the library to check out a book. I sat there and studied it the whole hour. Once the fear bell rang, I was so into the book that I slid my chair back carelessly bumping into Prince Stiching! Just my luck, however he smiled at me sweetly and noticed my book, so he started to sign something, which I didn't quite catch, but I thought he said to meet him after school, after the swimTeam practice. I must of gotten something wrong because I waited outside the gym for almost an hour and he never showed. I started to walk home just as it began to pour. What a bummer.


Sept 30th

I tried to avoid Drake in school today, but I could feel his eyes on my back in Clawculus. As soon as he tried to communicate with me after class I took a dash for the door. It's not that I didn't want to talk with him, it's just that I already felt really silly and I didn't want to give myself another reason to feel worse. I avoided him in the halls, trying to hide behind Saphira who gushed on about how she thought I had a crush on him. Thankfully a few girls grabbed his attention and I sneaked by dragging Saphira along with me. I told her he probably wasn't interested in me, what, with all the girls I was sure he had lined up. A few of them for sure in the swim team. Lagoona told me he was the talk of the locker room for a whole week. Saphira tried to cheer me up by telling me I would be the best catch, but I find that hard to believe.

Oct. 2nd

I guess I can't avoid Drake forever and it's a good thing I didn't!
I was sitting alone for lunch today, and he came over to me. Turns out he wasn't asking me to meet him after swimteam, he was asking IF I had swimteam practice, which I said yes to - thinking that yes, was him meeting me after swimteam practice. I'm such a fool!
After it was cleared up we laughed about it for a while and then he offered to help me practice the signing. And Guess what! He also invited me out on a date! It all happened so fast, I barley remember how it all happened. I need to start logging by the hour!



[more entries soon]






Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Ursula De'Kraken


Ursula De'Kraken by *Catzilerella on deviantART



Daughter of the colassal octopus
Age: 17

Killer style:
Its a bit on the goth side, but I can pretty much pull off anything as long as I have my fishnets.

Freaky flaw:
My tentacle hair sometimes has a mind of its own, acting as devious arms
stealing things or hitting people, which usually gets me into alot of trouble.

Favorite color:
I like the colors purple and light green- especially when combined with black.

Favorite food:
I love wontons stuffed with cream cheeze and crab filling.

Favorite activity:
I like swings. Thats not something we get to do down under and its so amazing!
My favorite thing to do under the sea is finding sunken ships to chill at and read the latest R.L. Stien books.

Favorite school subject:
Home ick- It might not seem likely but I enjoy baking! And I like Teasing Deuce.

Least favorite school subject:
History of the dead- it needs to liven up. Its such a drag. Though I do find the Egyptian section rather interesting.

Pet Peeve:
When people try to connect me to the Ursula from that horrid Disney interpretation of the Lil Mermaid. Normies always want a happy ending, but here at MH I think we all know that the Prince marries the Princess and the human wanabe desolves into sea foam.
And it's just a coincidence that I like wearing black flowing dresses.
Can't two people in this world have the same name, and similar styles. Geeesh!

BMFF:
Catzilerella
Lagoona
LauraLei

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This character was inspired by my latest adopted doll off ebay, who came to me with this lovely face up and some sloppy tentacles for hair. It was a WIP sale.
I decided to keep her as a Kraken kid.

I'm in the middle of a move, and she arrived just as we got to our new home.
I adore her face, she definitely brought a smile to mine. I had been unpacking my costumes that day and came across my Ursulal WIP cosplay I started last year which got me putting in 'The Little Mermaid' which also happened to be sitting on top of the CD pile. My daughter and I watched it during lunch, which I also started to think of the profile characteristics for this new doll and after jotting down some ideas, I decided that Ursula was the best name for a Kraken child, so there you have it.
I might of pulled off a little too much inspiration from Disney's Ursula, but That's because I love her. XD

I haven't unpacked all my craft things or set up my sewing corner, but I did find this airdry clay, so I attempted to give her some tentacle hair.
When I first got her I noticed her head is really wobbly, I wasn't sure why until I tried to do the tentacle hair myself. Even though it's lightweight, it's really heavy on her head, so needless to say, she's top heavy and has this head tilt pose up on my self right now.
I'm not sure I really did this tentacle hair any justice, but I'm hoping it'll look much cooler once I color it, and try to add some suction cups.



Wip

My tentacle hair attempt

Isn't her face just cute! To bad my Camera crapped out on me after halloween - who knows when I'll have money to take it to get fixed. T_T

<3 Adopted


It'll probably be a while before I get any more proggress on her, since I have to catch up on my work but stay tuned!

Thanks for reading!

-Catz

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Countess Ingrid

Whoooot! I'm so happy to have adopted my first Monster HIgh Custom!
I decided to call her Ingrid.

Her re-paint was done by the lovely datumzinebeautifulmemories.
I just love her!



You might want to click on her link to see a better picture of her, since my camera decided to crap out on me after hallowee and my phone pictures are not that great.

Adopted custom

Customized girls~

I decided she has to be BMFF's with my own custom Lauralei.



She's just so darn cool looking~

Adopted custom

Her outfit if amazing as well, so many lil details! LOVE.
I wasn't too crazy about her head bonnet thing, so I took it off, and then realized that I really didn't like her default hair, so ...



I chopped it off and made her a wig!
I love how she looks in it. I used the faux fur stuff you can find at any craft store - it's not really that great, so when I get a chance to head to the city, I'll get better faux fur to make her a better wig.

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My girls are getting along faboolously!

I wanted to try to draw her and make her profile to get to know her better. ^_~
My art is crap, but I enjoy doing it, so...




Countess Ingrid by ~Catzilerella on deviantART


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Name: Countess Ingrid
Age: 16...0 ish.
Parents: unnamed

Killer style: I'm a big fan of the Victorian and Edwardian era fashions and I like to mix it up by adding a modern steampunk twist.

Freaky Flaw: I'm deathly allergic to silver.

FAvorite Foods: I don't eat. I only drink... your blood True Blood.

Favorite Color: Copper penny brown

Favorite Activity: Hanging in the catacombs and playing my Theremin.

Biggest Pet Peeve: Vampire fanatics, especially those who ask to be bitten.

Favorite school subject: Music History. If I can't play an instrument I at least want to learn about it.

Least Favorite school subject:
Drama, The only stage I want to be on is the one where I get to play my Theremin.

BMFFs: Operetta
Lauralei Gill-man



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A little backstory that just came over me while writing up her profile info: More soon. XD

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Once upon a time... In 1841 Ingrid Delaflor was arranged to marry Count Orlock at the age of 16. She dreaded this day as she was being forced to marry a man three times her age in order to save her family's dwindling business.

She tried to run away and when that didn't work, she tried to take her life. Her parents had her locked away in a safe room until the wedding day.

After the wedding ceremony her carriage was abducted by a vampire who quickly killed the carriage driver. However, Ingrid, who was wishing death over having to go to her new home, inspired the vampire not to kill her but instead turn her into the world of the dead.

At first she thought, what a gift to continue to walk amongst the living without the cruel reality of her life, but short after came to the conclusion that walking dead is no reward at all. She sees it as starving for a life that's always going to be just out of her reach. She often thinks about the 'true death' but something is keeping her from just walking into the sun.


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Thanks for reading,

Way to addicted to MH,
-Catz

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Scary cool Customs~ Amature

Hey everyone, recently I've been back into trying to customize my own monster high dolls.
When I first learned about Monster high last summer, the series inspired me so much to look into trying to create my own character, based off my username. After I had the character drawn up in my mind, I tried to make a custom doll for her.
I had never before tried it, and needless to say it was ... well not very good.
Though I was still a bit happy with it! I went on a photo frenzy even.


MH OC Catzi Doll by ~Catzilerella on deviantART

I did get a few hate/rude comments.
And sure, there's some truth to the fact that I could of done better on the faceup, I did use sharpie in there.
But this was more of a test run for me, for fun, for whatever. Plus I was squeezing in this crafting while my daughter was asleep and in between other projects.
Yes, hater, your right, I didn't but in as much effort as I could of.
Though I still think the emails were quite ridiculous. It got worse after I did my next custom with a Moxie Teen,
Since I wanted CAtzilerella to be bigger than the MH girls, I thought this base would be great.

I think I did alot better, especially because I didn't have to draw in the eyes and I didn't use sharpies, and that made a big difference. Though I still could of diluted the paint some. Theres always something better that I could of done. But I really loved it.


One of my pets by ~Catzilerella on deviantART

Regardless I still got some pretty harsh comments about how poor my customs were and that I should stop trying. Also that my Character, CAtzilerella was just stupid.
WEll geesh. Harsh.

ON top of the harsh comments on my creativity, I was also getting really frustrated with not being able to find the dolls I wanted anywhere. IT's still frustrating.

I was already way into the BJD dolls by then and slowly I fell away from the fandom.
It wasn't until I was asked to do a few clothing commissions relating Monster HIgh for Halloween that I got back into it. In between my trades and commissions I squeeze some random crafting - for myself. I am so easily distracted. eep!
I used a bald Draculaura as a model for my MH clothing commissions,
I had chopped off the hair a while back hoping to try to re-root, but that task turned out harder than I thought and never got to around to re-rooting this doll. While I had her off the shelf I decided to try to paint her, and ended up with Itsy! My camera is on the fritz so sadly I don't have a really clear picture. Not that my photoskills are that great, but...


Itsy A.K.A Poppywise by ~Catzilerella on deviantART

I gave her acrylic eyes, because I thought it would be easier and look really neat.
However I used a blunt blade and ended up tearing up the vinly. I did the best I could to try to make it work. It was insanely hard to try to get the eyes to stay in place, I eventually got them hotglued in, but in the future if I do this again, I need to try something easier.

My latest custom is Lagoonalei Gill-man! Daughter of the Creature.
The character came to me after I had painted her.


Lagoonalei Gill-Man by ~Catzilerella on deviantART

It's not the look I had in mind when I started painting her, but I"m so happy with how she turned out and the eyes! These are the best Eyes I've drawn yet.
They are a lil creepy but I love it. I want to re-root her hair blue later on, but for now she's working the creepy cool FAux fur wig I made her. I just adore her!
She's sitting right next to me now.

It's been so much fun, I can't wait till I have more time - and the right supplies. I need some MSC, finer and better paint brushes, some paint retarder, gloss....other things I'm sure I don't know about. xD
I think I"ve improved a bit. Either way I love all my customs.

Way to addicted to Monster HIgh,
-Catz